Thursday, June 2, 2011

Happy Freaking Birthday: Part One.

I'll start from June 1st and work backwards... Eventually.

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Once I knew where I was going it was an easy trek. I ended up taking the back way, which was mostly downhill and was easier on the leg. I ended up on my property in the evening, walking down the road to the front of it and hobbling alongside the brook. Heading to the shed I just wanted to sit down and breathe for a few minutes before I began scouting out the place, but I couldn't even do that with all the ruckus coming from behind the shed. Concern laced through me and I grabbed the axe from inside the garage and bolted back, thinking the worse. Arriving I saw it wasn't my kin but others. My eyes first landed on the body, of a girl who looked just like me in every way. Her torso was exposed, ripped open; everything that was inside was now outside all around her. Her face was deeply clawed across, there wasn't a spot on her that wasn't bruised or cut it looked like.

Some distance from the doppelganger was Mr. Sunshine, on his side and partly curled. My heart jerked roughly, the childhood image of him flashing before my eyes. His shoulders moved a fraction, alerting me he was alive. Relief flooded that he was merely unconscious. No need to check on him, not when a third figure still stood. Female, tall, reddish-brown hair, I sought the basic details only at that moment. She turned and my ever changing eyes met with dark grey ones, reflected briefly by the glasses. Alert the woman was and I didn't stop my advancing. She pulled up the stick as I brought up the axe and swung down, cleaving it in two with a growl.

The woman tried to say something but I couldn't hear between the heavy breathing and fast heart beats. I pulled the axe out of the ground with a jerk, preparing to advance again when a chunk of wood hit me in the side of my head. I lifted my attention to her, seeing she had flung the chunk, perhaps in an attempt to knock me out. Now only left with one half of the branch she was. My nose wrinkled as I came at her once more, she dodging as I swung. We played this game of axe verses branch for a few times until I came around with a side swing, a weaker thrust that lodged itself into the branch rather than breaking through it. The woman quickly twisted the stick, pulling the axe from my grasp and chucking it to the side.

"Ok, now we can talk--"

I leaped forward and punched her without hesitation. She began to take on the defensive side, while I, being the offensive one, pursued. It was a messy fight, not even proper conduct of any form of fighting styles. We were just tearing into one another, or more-so I was while she was trying to defend. She only struck when necessary, clipping me in the face. The woman grabbed my bad arm by the wrist and twisted, trying to turn me around. I slammed down on her foot and spun, my bad arm already making a fist and landing the blow to her stomach. I had to back off and crack my shoulder before advancing once more. It was back to dodging, kicking, and punching. She slapped me across the face, I tried to break her wrist, her foot kicked me in the ribs, I tried to break her nose, she went for the hair and I hit her in the chest to back her the hell off me. I threw her back into a tree, she grabbed around stick and came at me, whacking me one in the back shoulder again. I growled, feeling it vibrate in my throat and grabbed the stick, yanking it down and kicking it, splitting it in two like the last.

I stepped to the right, she did the same. I kept moving for a reason, kept my eyes locked on her dirt stained face. Three, two, one, and there she was. I ran at her, chucking my half of the stick to her head which she deflected with her own half, arms raised. I sneered and rammed her mid-section, tackling her to the ground with my own body weight. My hand grabbed the axe she fell next to and raised it in one hand above my head, the other held down her chest while I sat on her torso. Everything was on fire; Mr. Sunshine was in my peripheral vision, the dead corpse as well.

kill her kill her kill her kill her kill her killherkillherkillherkillherkillherkillherkillherkillherkillherKILLHERKILLHERKILLHERKILLHERKLLHERKILLHER!

I could feel the muscles moving, stretching and contracting, my right arm twitched, everything felt slowed down as my arm thrust down the axe. Her scream is not what stopped it, it was what she screamed. My arm felt as if it was going to snap right off by how hard I reversed the thrust and pulled the breaks.

"Broken sword! Broken sword!"

The words echoed in my head as I stared down at the woman I had pinned. My breathing deepened a fraction as I rasped out a hiss. The raised axe shook, my mind worked to process who this woman was. Anger vibrated, paranoia leaked through easily, I wonder if she knew I was trying to burn a whole right through her skull with my glare.

I had to know, though.

Forcing my weight onto my left hand I leaned down to the older woman, my axe lowering to the side of her face in warning, "Don't try." Were the only words I rasped, feeling the need of a glass of water. With a grunt I pulled myself off her forcefully and stood, weapon ready to attack. I glanced to Mr. Sunshine, still breathing, still alright. I worked on trying to reduce my heart rate, watching as the girl pulled herself up slowly. No doubt hurt, I figured, but my patience was thin right now. This was not what I wanted to be dealing with the evening I got home, the evening of my birthday, the birthday a doppelganger enjoyed in my place. My grip tightened on the axe, the thought of it seeing my kin, being with them, enjoying them... A fucking day when we acted like a family shot to hell!

The axe was tempted to be raised and say "fuck it!" to this all but I restrained; the urge to kill was far easier to act upon than the act of refraining from it. And I was not a person that went the easy way. Aching, bleeding, leg no doubt reopened, I scowled and uttered two words, "Speak quickly."

Twenty-Fourth Post.

I... Am sore. Clean, but sore. And rather pleased to be using tiny font again. Seriously, just zoom if you can't read this small.


I'm alright. To put it briefly (longer version later) I ended up coming home the evening of my birthday. Heard a lot of racket, so I ran to the back of the property, grabbing an axe along the way. Found some woman standing about, Mr. Sunshine was unconscious and my doppelganger was... Just shredded open, her entire torso exposed and rearranged. I pretty much mauled the woman, and we tumbled around till I pinned her, axe raised and about to cleave her head in two. Well... That's one way to make first impressions in the flesh, eh Mystery?


So I hobbled around and we secured Mr. Sunshine, dragged off the body to deal with and yea. Mystery is staying at our super cereal new clubhouse with Mr. Sunshine and I'm changing the bandages on my injuries. Makeup isn't going to cover up all this shit, so... I'm at least happy my mess of a hair can block my face and neck enough, and it's not unusual for my family to see me like such. No idea how to explain the leg, but I can straighten up and tough it out the brief moments I pass by them. Least, I hope.


Anyways, we're safe, if not a bit sore and uneasy in the mind. I think with Mystery present I can feel a bit less stressed. Here's to hoping.
Have to figure out what to do with Mr. Sunshine too. After what the Executor dragged out of my mind I just don't know. I'm not going to kill him. I think I'm understanding now why he was that way before. I may not remember him yet, but I know enough to not abandon him. I'll bring the heart rocks he left tomorrow, and hopefully then I can get some answers. This guy... He's not some man tearing people apart. I think-I think he's still a kid, innocent inside, just grown and corrupted by Him. I spent a bit of my time just watching him sleep, without the hood, without the double masks. It's not ok.


I've been thinking about it since I left.
I'm going to protect him or die trying.
I won't fail you again.


Going to fix up some shit... I took the mask the Executor made for me. That he used on me. I keep looking at it, staring into the empty eyes. What he has done will not go without punishment. I have positioned myself on this side, to help those that need it. It does not mean I cannot, or will not bend my methods. Executor, we both have seen what this one is capable of doing, do not think I won't just because of the side I am upon. This goes for the Advocate too. Prosper, I know you're still nearby also, so this goes to you also.
I was tempted to encourage Victor, not that he would need it. Believe me though, I was tempted. I just felt that trash like you wasn't all that good for anyone. Still, I am glad he is safe, even if you are still alive.


Everyone, thank you for the support. I read over the things said... Especially when I sat down to read what the Executor posted. My honor is weird and minor, but I can honestly say I an honored to have you guys at my side.


Mystery, I am glad you are alright. And... I'm not apologizing about the whole "nearly cleaved my axe into your face" thing. Feh. You are comfy to sit on, though. Ha!


I need to start doing some catch up work, though. I'll be around for a short bit and all if you need me here or on Youtube.


Stay safe, dears,
-Shady

Monday, May 30, 2011

Twenty-something Post 4

Sorry for disappearing earlier folks
Went to sneak into a house
Triggered the alarm
Had to gain distance
Slept a few hours in the woods
Up again
Thought I heard something
Probably did
Probably Prosper
It was

Moonlight
I could see him sitting on a log
Off in the distance
Hunched over
Looked dead where he sat
Completely still
Stayed like that for a while
Then slowly he looked my way
My skin burned
I worried it would sizzle off
Then it was gone
The feeling
His head tilted up past me
Confusion
Then I paled
I grabbed a rock next to me when I turned
Threw it at the Suit
Bolted

Kept running till I came to a house
Slipped in
Was found
Attacked one another
Both defensively
Backed off
He is strange
But offered help
Least with my wounds
I held my tongue
Did not speak
Still havent
Nodded instead
Claimed to be a doctor
Curious
Useful
I glanced at a mirror
Least I wasnt filthy anymore
The previous house helped
Maybe he didnt see my as some wild jungle woman
I am glad I broke into those houses now
I doubt I would be getting assistance had I looked like the swamp monster

Sitting in a chair
Typing this while he gets supplies to help my wounds
Drugs are gone I think
Good
Can you tell?
I think I can
I can hear him
Suspicious
He has a strange smile
Alluring
Drawing me into comfort
Yet making my instincts push away from it
I do not want to sleep here
I think I will stay awake
Leave when he falls asleep
He has to sleep
Then again
Why was he even awake?

Ask later
Alert
Need aid with injuries though
Too much sweat
Dirt
Moisture has slipped into the wounds
Too many germs
The risk is necessary

Hope Mystery is alright
Still watching for signs
Worried
Very worried

Stay safe

She threw away paradise
One blink of eyes
and it was gone
She did it on purpose
SHE DID IT ON PURPOSE

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Twenty-something Post 3

Cant sleep
Dark
Quiet
Too quiet
Dont trust
Saw someone earlier
Hid
Man
Tall
Appeared laxed
Back turned away
Could hear breathing
Low breaths
Everyone
Looked around
No one
Looked back
He was turned and looking at me
In my direction
Masked
One of Them

White mask
Black lips
Smudged circles around eyes
Xs over each eye
Like all he saw was that symbol
Defining what he is
Who he serves
269
This was 269

He turned away halfway
Examined the arm I dislocated and broke
He knew I was there
Showing off his fixed self
Taunting me
Blood boiled
Suspicion
He lowered his arm
Looked forward
The direction I am heading in
Began walking
Looking back at me
Then faded
Like a ghost
Like Executor
269 might not be just a lackey

I worried he was going to my home
My kin
No though
I have seen him a couple times
Popping up
Never confronting
Just following
Why?
Why are you watching only?

I sit in the woods this night
Unable to sleep
My leg is not infected
Fixed it the last two days
Broke into two houses
Slept in the shed of one
Basement of another
Families that worked
Children that went to school
Bare houses
Cleaned up
Found a charger
Borrowed it
Will mail back in a few days

The Suit didnt return
Hasnt been back since that morning
Isnt this prime time to attack?
Instead I am followed
Executor on the run
GOOD FUCKING RUN!
Is that why?
No
Maybe
Why?

Confused
After effects of drugs
Kicking in
Will feel better soon
Sore now
Pissed off
Keep thinking
Thoughts
Reflections of then
Betrayed
Drowning
Taken
Betrayed
Betrayed
Betrayed
Betrayed

Have to get home
No one is coming
Only watching
No one ever comes
No one ever comes
Like back then
None

Good
Let no one come

I find my way back home
I find my way back home
I can find my way back home

Stay safe

Dont follow
Her swan song will
be like a bullet laced in anger

Soon
Watch
But do not follow
She will bleed your world dry
if she has to
hehe

Friday, May 27, 2011

Mystery

ANNOUNCEMENT:
 Repost:

Found a house finally, snuck into it. Residents are asleep, computer is downstairs. On guest account, heh. Keeping this short. So tired... No. Hurry. Mystery is gone, perfect timing right? I'm concerned. On Twitter he posted a cut off code for danger. Trying to track or find any messages or get an idea of what this means.

Wildman is my first suspect. Mystery was concerned earlier and displayed it openly. I am so tired, the anger, the worry, it adds stress to this breaking body and mind. I don't suspect the Executor, nor his companion Proxy 269. It seems my previous captor is too busy running from Victor (Good! Fucking run!). You never know, but in regards to earlier when we were conversing common sense leans towards the brute that's been stalking him.

While I can give you no description on Mystery I can go ahead and give you what Mystery said in his own words about Wildman:

"Though the big one seems not to like the little one. It chases him around and around the park. I've taken to calling the big one Wildman (of Borneo). His one defining feature is the hair... long, lank, grizzly hair. He hasn't gotten within a yard of me, but I imagine he smells. Just a guess.

The little one, I don't know. I only noticed it a day ago. It dropped out of a tree practically on top of Wildman. Never saw one of Them run so fast. Both of them disappeared into the trees. The little one is very small, very thin. Could just be a kid, but that doesn't explain why Wildman fled the scene and seems to be avoiding it whenever I can even spot the little one."


If anyone recognizes someone fighting a person (or people) fitting that (these) description(s) you need to alert me immediately.

I can't stay long. Can't risk it. I'm debating on heading into Mystery's direction but that seems like suicide, in my condition I'd only burden any attempts at survival. I see the pocket knife next to me, finely sharpened not by me, but by the Executor during my stay. I feel like my small weapon was raped. This is bullshit but there is little we can do as of now. I'm going to settle in the basement of this house, took a peek around when I initially entered. There is a hidden spot behind some crap, cold floor but fuck it. House is pretty warm. Will sleep for a few hours. Find where I am in the morning. Hopefully have some word from Mystery by then.

Wildman, I swear... Everything I would have done to Bad Man Walking I will do to you ten fold, should you have hurt Mystery. Should anything happen. Your master will shiver when He sees what I have done to you. Unlike Mystery I am not a pacifist, I have no qualms in tearing down everything you know and everything you are. This is not an empty threat, it is a goddamn promise.
No one touches friends/allies/people I give a damn about. No one especially touches kin, and Mystery is as close to me as my own blood relatives are.

I can't find any signs aside from our Twitter conversation. I read the fire incident and everything before. Mystery's kin are safe, at least he believes so. But is he? That question pulls at me, it concerns me. I can't aimlessly go into his direction, though. None of us can. Please, Mystery, if you are alright let us know. I'm really hoping your computer just glitched out or something but... Fuck, the likeliness in that timing... We both know, don't we? You're a strong one. I refuse to assume the worse and I will slap anyone else who does.

I need to lay back, even if it is on a the hard floor in the basement. Need a few hours. Need to think.
I'll post updates on Twitter when I get on the road again. Going to keep looking for something, even if I have to check every page and every lead fifty times. Some clue as to where he went... Smarter than that. He'll have a plan even when attacked. I'm sure of it.

I don't know how many of these chances I will get, how much access I will have to a computer either. Might bounce from house to house if I can. Have to find a way to power up the cellphone too, it's running really low. Will rummage this house for something tomorrow. Here's to hoping it is empty.
Here's to hoping Mystery is alright.
Stay safe. Please.

-Shady

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Twenty-something Post 2

Woke up
5AM
Slept curled up on the ground in woods
He was a few feet away
I didnt move
Like if I didnt He wouldnt see me
He did
He always does
I grabbed my open pocketknife
He leaned down halfway
I brought the pocketknife closer to myself
He tilted his head
I pushed myself up like I was going to confront him
No
Bolted right
Ran through the woods
Could see him every so often
He didnt need to run
He was at certain points
Then He was just there
In front of me
I stopped sharply
I raised the knife to my neck
We regarded one another
Would I do it?
Would He make me do it?
Did I want to do it?
No
I didnt
Would I?
Yea I fucking would
Why?
Spite Him
Fuck you
YOU DONT OWN ME
THEY DONT OWN ME
NO ONE OWNS ME
He straightened
He left
I waited like that just in case
He didnt return
I started walking again
I didnt stop until the sun was up
I typed this
I posted this

Dont understand
Havent see him in years outside of dreams
Why
Why
Why
WHAT IS IN MY HEAD?
You took him
What happened to him?
What happened to me?

The drugs are leaving system
Hysteria dying
Think tomorrow the drugs will be out
Completely
Heres to hoping

Going to keep walking
Found road last night
Staying near in woods
Looking for street signs
Stay safe


A life of forgetting is no life at all.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Twenty-something Post.

Captured by Executor and Advocate
Dont know how long
Mind fucked
Time distorted
Dont know
Sitting on a rock in woods
Dont know where
Got out hours ago
Kept running
Was in an abandoned building
Bad smell
Covered in dry blood
Tattered clothes
A mess

Shit is fucked up
Mind somewhat dissected but Executor couldnt get what he wanted
Hehehe
Broken mind
Physical torture was bad
I laughed to spite them
I unwillingly cried from natural reaction
I yelled very nasty things at them
Didnt help
Felt good though
They hated when I was silent
So I was mostly

If you see a man with a white mask
Aark rings around the eyes
And a giant X across the lower half of its face
That means you just got mind fucked by the Executor
Oh yes
Figures his mask would look a little like bondage
Or is that just me?
Have to have something to chuckle about
Something at least

Beware of the Advocate
He wears a white masquerade mask
Black tribal symbols around eyes
One side of mask bare
Other covered in symbols
Maybe occult

Will post Twitter updates
Every few hours
Post here nightly
Till I find my way home
And murder the replacement that wears my face

Stay safe
Please

It is so dark and cold out here
Familiar