There's so much blood. Why is there so much blood? Where did it come from? Is it all from the same person? It can't be. Humans don't have this much blood in them. Does that mean they are dead? Who is they? Who is dead? Are they dead? Am I dead? No. I'm writing this now.
WHERE DID ALL THIS BLOOD COME FROM?!
Am I awake?
He's so close now. Fucking Ferus. Fucking torture. Fucking mindfuckery bullshit. My body, it's starting to numb. I thought it might be useful, it's not. I can't feel myself stumbling or when I cut open my arm when running through the woods. I can't feel. I'm so tired. I don't want to run. I'm not a Runner. I'm a Fighter. I can't fight.. Not like this.
He knows, he knows it. He thrashed me last night mentally. I couldn't fight back, I couldn't. I'm so tired in every single way. There's so little that keeps me from not giving a fuck anymore.
Last night was bad. I couldn't tell the difference. I haven't been sleeping much. I can't stay asleep. My mind wakes up. Caged One thinks it's dangerous. I need it, I keep blacking out and waking up in worse condition. She's going to kill me if I don't sleep. I had to sleep. My body shut down. Executor was waiting, he found me.
THERE WAS SO MUCH BLOOD
I couldn't tell the difference. Was I awake or still asleep? What was real and what was fake? I have to get home.
I have to vent. I have to or it will just get all pent up and that will make him find me faster. My mind, it doesn't shut up. Ever. It just doesn't stop... It doesn't. That's how he keeps finding me when I fall asleep. Every time I do he's there, he grabs my head by one hand and throws me into a tree. I wake back up and crawl to a stand to keep walking. Because I can't sleep. But I need to or I'm going to black out again. And then it's hours of glory for him, it's more time for him to try and hack into my brain as I try to defend my location.
He doesn't stop. He might be here now. Am I awake? I hope so. I can't tell anymore. I'm so tired and there's just... Just so much fucking blood. Maybe I'm dreaming. Maybe I'm talking into this phone and he's just listening on the other end.
I think I'm dreaming.
What does that mean?
And why is there so much blood?