Thursday, November 10, 2011

Because.

It's not enough that I already have enemies in my backyard. I had to adopt a few more.

My everything hurts, for the most part. Not going to get into details at the moment because I quite frankly don't have the time. I have to run my ass all the way home, which is STATES away. Awesome. On top of which saving my cellphone as much as I can, I'd rather not have to break into more places. Especially in this condition, bastard beat my bones till they nearly broke. I'm not the prettiest thing to look at, right about now I probably look a hell of a lot worse.

Back to the Devil state I go, though. Trying to avoid hitching rides, seriously... My head is swimming and these "little feelings" are scattered all over the place. You'll find out why later, it's not pleasant. When I sleep it's nothing but that constant string of pain. Ferus, I understand but still stand by what I said to you.

To update you all: Executor and Ferus made a fucking deal on my head. He got to play with the body before my death would come at the hands of Executor. That fuck nugget is a slippery prick but like I said in my previous post, I'll pull out of the goddamn situation. Crawl if I have to. I have shit to do, or more commonly quoted, "Miles to go before I sleep".

I've noticed Dia got what my previous post was about. Kudos to her. What does that mean? You'll know with the full version.

I'll tell you the tale of Ferus and my time spent with him shortly. I'm currently in a pub fucking with one of the computers in the back, teehee. Got to hit the road again and limp my sorry ass onto the right path, not feeling all that lucky right about now.

Good news: Map acquired.

Bad news: Daaaaays away still. I'd really love a piggy-back ride right about now.

Oy... My everything.

16 comments:

  1. it hurts so much you start laughing at it dont you? because the pain is just so damn intense, and your sticking it out so well, you start to wonder how your even still walking on two legs and breathing correctly.


    its a very odd feeling. it feels like its somewhere between wanting to live and knowing ill die.


    good luck umbra,
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  2. Lived that feeling the first time around, Ike. Right now I'm just laughing because I knew it was coming and it worked out better than I imagined. I'm no novice to this.

    The difference between you and I there, Ike, is that you want to live but know you'll die, where-as I force myself to live and know I'm capable of dying. Not that I will die, but that I can die. Can't give into that option, Ike. Just have to acknowledge it is there and respect it, even as you fight against it.

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  3. oh i never though you were a novice. i was just checking to see if i was the only one who felt that way. glad im not.


    you ring up an interesting perspective......is that what im missing??? am i giving into the idea that im just gonna die??

    i know i dont have to die, but i thought....ya know.....eventually id get caught...


    ...do you really think i can win and get back to living normally?

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  4. Ike, life being normal is never an option, not unless you got your mind wiped. And there are only a few I know capable of that, all of them the enemy. But that doesn't mean you can't get close to it again. Only difference is you won't be blind anymore.

    Those you list as normal are those that don't see what you have seen. That are blind to the truths out there, the things that exist.

    Honestly, if that's what it means to be normal I'm happy not being anything close to it. But that's a choice that differs from person to person.

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  5. About all the shit that YOU put in my head, Ferus? How about a fucking please and I'll respect your wishes.

    One of us has to be pretty-sort-of-decently nice, heh.

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  6. my god. you get kidnapped and beaten the shit out of, yet you still keep your manners.

    if everyone was like that, i wouldn't want to hurt them all >x(

    your right. i should look at this as a learning experience. something that gives me new insight.

    thank you shady. i needed this.

    stay safe,
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    Ik3
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  7. Someones has to be (somewhat) pleasant.

    You're welcome, hon. If you need anything you know where to find me. Stay safe.

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  8. If anyone tries to convince you something is simple in this world, they either have something to sell you on or they are lying. You are a pawn to them, and they are manipulating you as surely as we each take a breath. Remember that, IKE. Or else you'll wind up floating facedown in a pool of water somewhere.

    Maybe tucked somewhere in a trash heap, letting the maggots digest themselves through your flesh. If you're lucky.

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  9. Dia, are you trying to win my heart? Easy now, deary, haha.

    But Ike, she does make a valid point.

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  10. I'm nauseous, I'm shaking, and you and I need to converse about many things. I'll be damned if any of our friends, or you, let yourself be taken in. My mood or charm have no bearing on that.

    I feel rather vehemently about certain subjects now.

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  11. I'm aware, Dia. I had to do what I had to do here for various reasons.

    You have my email, you can send me whatever you want to. We can discuss things there

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  12. Terribly injured, a long way from home; alone with none to assist. Lady, do you not realize how easy you have made this for me?

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  13. I can promise you it will not be as easy as your list makes it, just like the last time.

    You can go ahead and go fuck yourself, Executor.

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  14. If you need to comfort yourself in trying times, my dear lady, there are four simple words that have humbled kings and helped beggars:

    This too shall pass.

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