tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post5282145720286836841..comments2023-06-14T07:46:22.243-04:00Comments on First Blog: Fifteenth Post.TheShadyLadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-4592969995933780972011-05-16T20:21:17.031-04:002011-05-16T20:21:17.031-04:00I would not lie to you, Victor. You do not deserve...I would not lie to you, Victor. You do not deserve it. You have my respect and deserve my honesty. Sometimes I don't feel real, but how can that be when the others see me physically?<br /><br />I'm real. You saw, Victor. You don't want to see me hurt and I do not want to see you hurt. All I want to do is help you, protect you, rub away the hatred so that what is beautiful about you can truly be seen.<br /><br />You cannot find the Journal? Talk to me, Victor. That's all you have to do.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-9245149507447586192011-05-15T05:14:49.839-04:002011-05-15T05:14:49.839-04:00this Harvest comes. not even i can stop it.
i woul...this Harvest comes. not even i can stop it.<br />i would not see you hurt.<br />beautiful to me are your words peeling back layers of time and hatred.<br />i do not even know that you are real.<br /><br />so much, these thingss. i cannot find my journal.<br />do you know?<br />too much.<br /><br />the Doctor whispers to me that you are not real.<br />that you lie.<br />please.<br /><br />please stop.<br /><br />please.This Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-75774704277481470462011-05-03T20:30:40.344-04:002011-05-03T20:30:40.344-04:00No, I have not questioned why whatever god or ange...No, I have not questioned why whatever god or angels out there have not come. I've only questioned you, Victor. You sound more and more like the OracleofLies. Say whatever excuse you will, hide behind it. Go right ahead, obey. Obey until you die. See if that makes you happy, Victor. See if they make you happy, if vengence, if any of this does. I can tell you now, you'll just feel like shit when it's over. Reject the offer of humanity's care, ignore my reached out hand. You're no better than the rest.<br /><br />I am what I am, I am who I am. I'm not a good person, but I'm not bad either. I offer every bit of myself to show you how you're of value, as an individual, as a person. Months now I've been pestering you, like a shadow that is there within the light, and still there within the dark. You are not lost, just blinded. Blinded to what there is still left that is good within our species. I've been wondering how something so beautiful could see everything as ugly, Victor. You refuse those things, hope, love, the soul of man, because you're not feeling nor seeing your own. And you won't let someone kick open that door to free them.<br /><br />No stomach, no heart to murder children, yet you are going to. You are going to because you refuse to acknowledge the fucking difference between thinking something is wrong and not doing anything about it verses actually doing something. I see what is wrong with people, I see what is wrong with this as well, Victor. I am going to die defending them, though. I won't stop reaching out to you, to them, and protecting the others. I'm going to keep stepping in front of you on your path. You're going to have to kill me if you want me gone. If that's what you want, fine. That's just how it is, I guess.<br /><br />When you're ready to speak like yourself and not like them I'll be here. Till then, I'm not going to frustrate myself further.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-35787468957409401882011-05-02T19:13:34.618-04:002011-05-02T19:13:34.618-04:00No.
i have Chosen my Fate and i will not be denie...No. <br />i have Chosen my Fate and i will not be denied.<br />i will not be swayed by pretty words. i know what iss coming. with these eyes i see. <br /><br />i have no stomach or heart to murder children but thiss pact must be upheld.<br />thiss Harvest cannot be stopped.<br />do you question why<br />no God hass intervened no Angels come no help arrivess?<br /><br />Natural Law cannot be denied. Der Ritter, the Wilde Jagd proceed and it iss allowed.<br />above evil. above good. <br />no choice.<br />i did not agree to the descendants but what was stolen must be returned.<br /><br />always. it was in the water. he put it in the water and murdered uss all.<br />i Chose my Vengeance upon a failed race of murderers and nothing you have, no thing you are will stand in my way.<br />no hope. no love. no soul of Man.This Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-65768339454606704912011-05-01T01:28:40.502-04:002011-05-01T01:28:40.502-04:00I will keep checking this post, Victor. This is ou...I will keep checking this post, Victor. This is our time and place for conversation until we move it elsewhere.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-87574398384697551852011-04-30T05:56:17.178-04:002011-04-30T05:56:17.178-04:00What I am doesn't matter as long as it lasts m...What I am doesn't matter as long as it lasts me long enough to reach you. Broken body, broken mind, broken girl. Still going, Victor, I'm still pushing forward. He doesn't have to get far, there is a way to stop this. You just have to want to, stop saying no. Try saying yes to what you want. You remind me of when I was stuck saying yes to everyone, being what I was not. Obeying because I didn't know what the hell to do. Do you know what the did to me? It made me take a sledgehammer and break down every wall until there was nothing left of who I was. I set it all on fire. I erased my own structure and rebuilt. I said no to those that tried to control me and yes to what I wanted. I just want to grab you by the collar and shake you, Victor. Honestly, nothing is set in stone. And even if it were that is what sledgehammers are for.<br /><br />Maybe you just misinformed me, Victor. Were you not telling me the whole truth when you said your offer was to find what was stolen? You just said how you never agreed to that part of it. You still have your mind, your will, you just need to utilize it. If you had it your way would you not do something about this? If you're trusting me enough to tell me this all, why aren't you trusting me to help you, Victor? Don't let them break your wings.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-89303824247419399252011-04-30T05:33:36.639-04:002011-04-30T05:33:36.639-04:00i am not
i cannot
i am
the journal. exalted. the e...i am not<br />i cannot<br />i am<br />the journal. exalted. the eleventh step.<br />He evolves as well as your kind.<br />not alone.<br />i am raised up and given power unchecked for this.<br />i see too much overwhelming blind sight into<br />i see you.<br />tearing apart the executioner.<br />and yourself.<br />i see you with a pain like cancer eating you.<br />always dying.<br />i seee what is comingg and i knoww<br />hunger begat of darkness cannot be stopped.<br />only slowedd<br />i. am. not.<br />He will consume us. and thiss. and all. and then the godss themselvess.<br />the pact has not been kept yet.<br />what was stolenwill be returned.This Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-68390823761058643992011-04-30T04:42:54.605-04:002011-04-30T04:42:54.605-04:00It only must be kept because you believe that. You...It only must be kept because you believe that. You never agreed to it, it wasn't in your bargain. Your pact was kept, it was honored, you've been with them so long you just don't know what else to do, Victor. The fact you can even say you didn't agree to it means you can be redeemed. You're capable of holding the weapon that can end Him. You just have to let us help you help yourself. There is an entire person still there to save, but all I am seeing is him not wanting to be saved because he doesn't believe he's worth it, and that he must keep to a pact he no longer holds ties with because of it.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-12180551881353291622011-04-30T03:12:36.245-04:002011-04-30T03:12:36.245-04:00it cannot end until they are all dead.
it is not t...it cannot end until they are all dead.<br />it is not they're fault.<br />they never knew.<br />those sins of the fathers passed to the sonss<br />i never agreed to the descendants.<br />but.<br />it was in the water.<br />i never knew until it was too late.<br />he put it in the water<br />and he murdered uss all.<br />the pact must be kept.This Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-7386994638884135102011-04-28T14:28:15.629-04:002011-04-28T14:28:15.629-04:00So the theory is true, the Journal is not an objec...So the theory is true, the Journal is not an object but a person. Victor. That is remarkable. Curiosity wishes me to pry further, the everything else crushes those desires. It does not matter what Victor is, the fact of the matter is he deserves his freedom. He said he would stay until he found the Journal. He found it. He had it all along, you and Him merely kept milking it for what it's worth. You are what is wrong with the world. Disgusting, so ugly. Not like him.<br /><br />These pretty words harbor truth, they mean something. I would direct them upon you but I have yet to see anything worth saving. Unlike Victor, who has much left within him. He is still there, he is not blind because you speak for him. He sees just fine. So I direct to him now, and tell him that despite being forced to believe your will to fly has been broken, you still have your wings. They have placed you within a small cage, hoping to prevent you from spreading your wings. If you regain your will even by a fraction you can spread your pair of powerful wings, the ones that have over time only gotten' stronger. And when you do you'll break what confines you have been locked away within, Victor. If you have not flown by the time I arrive then fine, I'll just kick your ass off a cliff and force it. I am their shield, I am yours as well. I will see you fly away from there and keep back what drives to keep you captured.<br /><br />If I die that's fine, if you haven't changed that's fine too. I'll come back and haunt the ever loving shit out of you, my dear. Either way I am coming, as are others. It took us some time but we are here. Your bargain was kept, there is nothing left to keep now. You have found the Journal, found it from the start. Nothing was said that you had to stay, so cut your strings, we will catch you before you even touch the ground.<br /><br />I will not scrabble for life, you ignorant bitch. I'm standing just fine and defending their lives. Mine, on the otherhand, is ultimately meaningless. As long as I can reach that which is still beautiful within him, as long as I live just long enough to see him take control... That is all my life amounts to. Living past that would be a surprise.<br /><br />I am coming for you, beast and Victor. I see your black and I see your white, but I am gray. Rather than bending into one direction I figured out both, and I will use that and more against you to pry him free from your clutches, and His. Sau what you will, Victor is the victim, you are the prey.<br /><br />Hear this, Victor. I can see your shine poking through the grime. If you cannot clear it away yourself we will. We care for your well being. This is no mask I wear for you. This is real, what you plan to do is real. You're so close to the end now, if you keep fighting you can break free. I know you can, with that strength of yours. Stay beautiful, like they remember you as, like she remembers you as, like I have come to see you as. Fight, because you have no more bargains to keep.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-73038511307835538472011-04-28T08:40:12.905-04:002011-04-28T08:40:12.905-04:00suchh pretty littlee words here, to himm
this sur...suchh pretty littlee words here, to himm <br />this surcease iss too late<br />a hahahah haha hah<br />victori no longer livess here pretty little wordss<br />victori IS the Journal foolish hollow thing <br />not as what he seekss<br />those AShess there, where buried so <br />the bargain WILL be keptt<br />scrabble so for salvation claw and rend at life.<br /><br />comeandsee yes<br />come and seeThis Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-2676293035572462072011-04-28T08:03:28.074-04:002011-04-28T08:03:28.074-04:00You found the Journal? Wouldn't that mean you ...You found the Journal? Wouldn't that mean you completed what it is you offered to him? You found it, Victor. You have no more reason to remain suffering under his hand. Cut the strings, we will catch you before you even touch the ground. You kept your word, you kept it, Victor. You have nothing left to offer him then, your freedom has been granted, he's cheating, he's selfish, though. If he will not let you go you must do so yourself.<br /><br />I believe I understand now. I am sorry if I have brought pain unto you. So fragile, you're cracking, Victor. Like a beautiful piece of stained glass, you're cracking. Mystery speaks the truth as well, considering you have done what you offered to do now you have the chance to make this world a better place than how you've known it to be. Your pain can lessen, I know personally it can never fully fade but it can lessen greatly. Become bearable. You are strong, even when fragile now, you are so strong. So powerful. Your journey has not been easy, but you kept your word, through your suffering you kept it. Now you do not have to anymore, it has all been completed. You can change your course now.<br /><br />Please, do not burden yourself with saving me or wishing for it. I made my choice, it is worth it. My focus is saving you. I care not for my life, it need only to survive long enough to see your suffering ending. Turn your wishes to have saved me, or anyone else upon yourself now, Victor. He, It may be coming but so are we.<br /><br />If it is the Journal He wished you to find then you have found it. Your offer has been completed. Isn't this true, hon? Can't you finally break your ties?TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-58157856441804484562011-04-28T07:43:06.203-04:002011-04-28T07:43:06.203-04:00There is honor in the struggle, strength in learni...There is honor in the struggle, strength in learning your strengths. Strife has many lesson to teach, the least of which is self-knowledge. <br /><br />The only thing worth striving for is to leave the world a better place than how you found it. It is far easier to give in and allow another person's will to control you, to end you, than it is to keep fighting.<br /><br />The end may be inevitably, but the journey is always the most important aspect of life.Mysteryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08901066686729020288noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-52384653250399275372011-04-28T07:39:53.519-04:002011-04-28T07:39:53.519-04:00the sickness. it was in the water he put the Ashes...the sickness. it was in the water he put the Ashes in the Water he murdered us all to make a weapon we never had a chance we bleed more it is in the blood<br />the pills do not protect the medicine is not true<br />there can be no peace there will be no new generation now they have died and been forgotten all but me all which knew or had a chance he opened the gateway he called he summoned it and fed it and woke it up<br />it is in the journal the darkest journal yes he kept a journal and we found it yes<br />i am. undone. this<br />heart. breaks. these eyes bleed.<br />i would save you from itt if i could<br />so<br />much<br />painnThis Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-81249910766016562732011-04-28T07:12:34.494-04:002011-04-28T07:12:34.494-04:00Something came for you, something vile that took a...Something came for you, something vile that took advantage of your state. It cared nothing for you, Victor. It took me a while to get here, for others, but we are here now. You don't have to allow yourself to be suffocated by Him, to do his bidding. I respect you, to keep that in which you offer it. I do not harbor any ill will towards you because of it. I merely want to understand who you are, from past to the present and into the future. And if I can help you that is even better. I want to say I hate them, I hate all the ones that never came to you when you needed it so. Instead, I can just loathe them from here, glaring at them in disgust for betraying one of their own. Ugly people. Hideous. Not like you, Victor, nothing like you. They should have been better but they weren't. We, the generations that follow, are trying to be better. For you, for others that have suffered like you.<br /><br />What our species did was wrong. But there are others who have suffered losses like yours and who had none come for them. And you know what happened to them, Victor? They either withered or they stood back up. Alone, they stood up again.<br /><br />If you told me how you will find what was stolen (granted, it wasn't the harvest) I could better understand. If slaughtering the mass is unnecessary don't do it. If it is just because you wish to out of your hatred, or He desires it so, there is no real reason then to do it. If it is to find what was stolen I can tell you now there are other options. Honor... I have not acknowledged it in years, and yet I feel it when you speak to me without the riddles. I would not tell you nor ask of you to break your word you made to Him. Not unless it was absolute. I see you have kept yours so loyally, despite your suffering from not only the past but as well what he has done.<br /><br />Humanity has done terrible deeds, it is currently, and will in the future. We are a young species yet, we need to learn how to stop genocide, not create more of it. And we certainly cannot stop once if no one tries to stop it. What happens when your harvest comes, Victor? Should this race every recover do you know what you will have done? Just set an example for in the future. The genocide you aim to complete will only set a target to repeat it again, only bigger, make your slaughtering of the masses nothing in comparison to the next one that comes around. The cycle will just grow and grow from there. You have the chance to prevent that.<br /><br />So I question you about what was stolen and how it will be found, so I can offer something to you. A different solution.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-38409392113560308142011-04-28T06:44:25.483-04:002011-04-28T06:44:25.483-04:00i am. undone.
this heart of weakness.
these horror...i am. undone.<br />this heart of weakness.<br />these horrors of flesh that crawl and moan<br />that which begs for death and blood.<br />madness which leaks and infects and screams<br />i cannot.<br />please.<br />god please. if such exists.<br />i begged thee once for life. for her. for them.<br />i begged and prayed and cried for mercy in that rain. if not for me, for them.<br /><br />i beg of thee now, show your children mercy from the darkness begat of teeth.<br /><br />knowthis now. i prayed. in my delusions and pain. nothing came. no help. no surcease was given unto me.<br />no human touch no angel's reprieve.<br />only Him. that which walks the rotten leaves.<br />It came then and shewed upon me mercy. power. <br />that which walkss behind.<br /><br />you wonder and ask, why iss your allegiance thus? how can you become such that makess you suffer?<br /><br />no thing came to help. no rescue. no hope.<br />Darkness with Teeth tread upon me then, answered then my pleas and my dying breath.<br />my hatred and my rage.<br /><br />i am lifted up, exalted in my Hell and Pain and Hate.<br />Mine hands were given power then, to kill and murder all which stood before me.<br />makes me suffer?<br /><br />humankind made me suffer. made the innocent suffer. i watched those children die at his hands that bastard vile. that Temple full of treason. <br /><br />of all things made, only It answered my pleading, my blood. only He shewed mercy upon my pain. and in return i offered to find that which was stolen from HIM.<br />////91////<br />THEREWILLBEARETURNThis Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-9201022685330175572011-04-28T05:47:52.378-04:002011-04-28T05:47:52.378-04:00Look at us, we run in circles around one another. ...Look at us, we run in circles around one another. It is nearly poetic. I refuse to see what you tell me just as you do the same for me.<br /><br />I would never ask you to kill anyone, Victor. I know what you are capable of. I have not experienced what you have, but it does not mean I can run through simulations with this mind of mine. I know you could, would, probably have and even will do such. I would not have you, I would not ask that of you. They are no threat to you, this I see, this I believe. But doing this to them... Does it make you feel any better? I do not care if you say that it is probably irrelevant. Your actions, when you do such to them, even if they are nothing in comparison in your view; what does that do for you?<br /><br />I gave up on my own happiness, Victor. I know, I hear the words you say. He will come. Asking anything aside from considering your options, from what I've nagged you about since the start is the only thing I can ever ask of you. I would not dare place burden upon you when you have had enough. I refuse to put strain upon you. Strong you may be, Victor, but you are fragile as well. The real you is such a fierce combination, like I said previously, it is beautiful.<br /><br />Your gift brings a smile to my lips, but ultimately it is unfair. I am scarred, body broken, pieces already missing. It will do worse than the time spent in the hospitals, worse than the years of isolation. But that is fine. I accept the pain to come for I know that what I do now means something. If not to anyone else than to me. You're worth not dying a quick death for, just like they are. Flawed and ugly, they are but diamonds in the rough. Just like you, Victor.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-5147898450836579422011-04-28T05:18:42.589-04:002011-04-28T05:18:42.589-04:00it is not that you do not understand. that would i...it is not that you do not understand. that would imply lack of intelligence and we both know it is not the case for you.<br />it is that you refuse to see.<br />morale.comprehension. resisting. all irrelevant to one who has seen and felt and heard what mankind is fully capable of.<br /><br />Lost. i do know. i do comprehend. i am loss given form. over and over and over. <br />less than.<br /><br />would you have me kill them first? these low men and hollow shells? i can shuck the power from them and fear no punishment.<br />would you have me tear the revenants from their very skin? it is within my hollow heart do do.<br />they are as dust in my face, no threat.<br /><br />i can save these sacks of meat... to make you happy for a time, But in the end.. It comes. He comes. my Endgültige Lösung would be humane, peaceful compared to what it brings for you.<br /><br />it. has such sights. to show you.<br /><br />i would see you dead and gone from here before the black wind comes to tear your parts asunder. a gift. the only one a monster has to give.<br /><br />please stop. please.This Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-37362801856675193322011-04-28T04:40:20.862-04:002011-04-28T04:40:20.862-04:00You are the one that obviously does not comprehend...You are the one that obviously does not comprehend. I see that just fine, will I still stand by and let them continue being servants even if the results are claimed to be the same regardless? No. If people are going to start dying they can do so with their freedom intact. With what hope they have they can unify themselves to stand together. You'd be surprised what morale does, considering you've lost yours.<br /><br />You tell me I do not understand that? I understand that fine. I choose to help them and give hope where others have lost it. If people are just going to bitch and moan about being scared and not do something about it I will. What I believe matters little to you, we will do what we can. That is all that needs to be said.<br /><br />Here is my gift to you, Victor. Stop seeing shades of red, you are becoming less of what you want to avenge and more of what you hate. Him. See what is beautiful again. I found beauty just recently. When you had your moment of calmness, to see what was beneath His layers of taint. That was beautiful. Your lack of consideration for changing your mind just tells me you are more like Him, like the ones who first lit that fury burning within you now.<br /><br />You see no point in this comment, most likely, though. I'll end it here. Save my frustration for another time.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-16941400222740698832011-04-28T03:16:44.326-04:002011-04-28T03:16:44.326-04:00a gift for you in darkness that you may not compre...a gift for you in darkness that you may not comprehend.<br />preaching salvation to deafened ears only furthers His cause. strife. chaos. is what It seeks, not followers. not conversions. kill them, save them, it is all the same, regardless.<br /><br />there is no flock here.<br />the empty can rattles the loudest.<br />fight or give up, it matters so very little in the end.<br />do you believe the servants will fare any better come harvest time?This Forgotten Thronehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07865914646504211404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-2009599730419277872011-04-28T00:11:47.651-04:002011-04-28T00:11:47.651-04:00Thank you for sharing that with us. Those are very...Thank you for sharing that with us. Those are very important values. It calms me knowing there is yet another who also fights for the taken ones, rather than just killing them.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-61291210381314014012011-04-27T23:58:30.982-04:002011-04-27T23:58:30.982-04:00You know.. i never really thought about my values....You know.. i never really thought about my values.. or what i'm fighting for...but if i were to choose it would have to be for these:<br />I fight for those who have no idea about this whole situation, for in hope they may never be involved and stay safe.<br />I fight for Those who choose the his dark path, who will maybe one day they may see the light of freedom again. <br />Finally, I fight for those who are involved, who will hopefully see a successful end to this never ending nightmare <br />that is what i fight forden morrande varghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03414831618007321055noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167386526293946849.post-5715727917158744482011-04-27T20:35:00.958-04:002011-04-27T20:35:00.958-04:00You don't have to comment either. The actions ...You don't have to comment either. The actions you all take, the choices you make are what matter to me.<br /><br />If you want to comment then comment on what you value, and tell not just me but all of us what it is you are fighting for.TheShadyLadyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14037316277007916560noreply@blogger.com